As I was tidying up
around the house today and doing laundry, I found myself thinking.
Yes, this again.
Thinking.
I was pondering on
my new home, my new ward, new people, new opportunities, etc. As I
often do, I doubted myself, and worried about how things would work
out. I’m more than aware that I’m an overweight tomboy with
Depression, that I’m a Democrat in a red state, that I’m a member
of The Church, yet disagree with many of the current policies and
culture, and that my opinionated, brutally honest soul can be a large
deterrent for some. Because of these things, I hate moving. I hate
having to start over, take all those social risks again, and decide,
ultimately, how I want to define myself anew – will I take the
route of leadership, speaking and being myself without fears, or do I
take the route of being a quiet observer who attends, but doesn’t
put my whole self out there, or risk offending. I’ve gone both
routes, and I definitely see the pros and cons of each.
Cleaning, I began
to wonder what Christ meant when He said that “If ye are not one,
ye are not mine.” How can God’s people be “one,” when they
are so obviously different?
The Bible tells of
the apostles approaching Christ with a dilemma, not coincidentally
following the telling of these same apostles arguing about which one
of them would be better than the other in Heaven. The apostles told
Christ of this problem – that they had seen a man casting out
devils in Christ’s name, and he wasn’t even one of His apostles.
Christ’s apostles had tried to stop the man, but Christ corrected
them, telling them not to, stating, “He that is not against us is
for us.” To me, this story begins to sum up the concept of “one.”
What makes us
God’s? What makes someone a person that God would want to claim
ownership of – to state, “Ye are mine”? What is this thing that
we can all have in common, that we can all be “one” on, despite
all of our differences?
To me, I think the
answer boils down to the first and second great commandments – love
of God, and love of our neighbor.
This is something
that everyone can do. You can be Mormon, you can be Buddhist, you can
be Muslim, you can be Baptist. You can be Republican, you can be
Democrat, or you can be a Libertarian. You can like classical music,
you can like Emo music, or even Spice Girls. You can be from Norway
or Liberia. Everyone can love God, and everyone can love their
neighbor. Love is what can make us “one.” The capacity to love is
not limited to the sinless or perfect. It isn’t limited to those
who follow the status quo, or fit “the mold.” Love is an action
that happens with each moment, with each decision. It is a choice
that can turn into a habit, which can shape a life.
The man who cast
out devils in Christ’s name, who was not an apostle, had love. He
was casting out devils. He cared enough about someone to do so on
their behalf. He did it in the name of Christ, a sure show of faith,
and likely subsequent love for God. The apostles looked down on this
man, feeling that he didn’t belong, that he didn’t have the
right, or place among them they felt was required. He didn’t “fit
in.” But Christ taught that he did. His love put him on God’s
side. God owned this man for his love, irregardless of his official
status among them, or even his background or experience. Love broke
any other perceived requirement to “belong.”
This comforted me,
and taught me as well. Love is the motivation that counts, and
frankly, it doesn’t matter who I am, or what side of me I show. So
long as I am loving, I belong. So too others. If they are loving, our
differences don’t matter. They can even like Spice Girls. If they
have the ability to love, then we can be “one” with God.
Grace, I love your words! You put so eloquently how I feel! God does not expect us all to become the same and think the same, but to love as He does! I'm sad you moved away, but I'm glad I know you!
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